Tuesday, July 28, 2009

painful anniversary???

dunno what to say...today is our anniversary...but i cried all day...since 12.00 last night....dunno what to say....

a lot things happen in a day....painful n hurt....mix in one...wow!!!! can't believe this thing happen in our anniversary....don't want to believe but it already happen....

by the way....happy anniversary....to me n...

i hope this thing wouldn't happen again...first n last...this is a painful anniversary..i will remember it forever....i hope i can live with this pain if it happen again....

God...if something happen to me...pls give ur blessing to all people who love n care for me....

p/s happy anniversary baby d~

-xoxo-

congratulations!!!!

last night....i call my baby d...aku xtahan dgn ape yg aku fikir....aku baca blog tu abis2...sedih nye aku xdpt share sume tu dgn die...sedihnye aku xdpt panggil die bulan...sedihnye....

tpi aku gembira sebab ade org leh share dgn die...aku happy sgt2...n org tu pun panggil my baby d bulan die....worth....that the important of sharing...me??? i don't i guess....baby d selalu ckp yg kitorg ckp mcm ayam ngan itik...so i can't read baby d...tpi aku bersyukur sbb ade org yg faham die....even what i said is a burden to me...aku rela semata-mata nak tgk baby d bahagia....

mungkin aku bodoh sbb cemburu buta...org dah explain pun tpi aku masih nak bangkitkan hal ni...aku xleh...aku check blog tu satu2...bnyk link dorg...dgn ex2 die pun ade...dgn chip tu pun ade...ntah la....lantak la...aku xnak ingat ape2 lepas ni....

aku bkn jahat tpi aku sedih sgt2...sejak aku bersemangat kembali ni la first time aku rasa sgt2 down....even tgh tulis ni pun aku leh nangis...aku benci keadaan ni....biarlah..jgn pedulikan aku....
aku boleh hidup walaupun aku lupa semuanya....asalkan hidup dan tidak menyerah...i can build my life back...i know i can walaupun sakit....

d~ i love u so much....klu ini harga yg terpaksa b bayar sbb pernah wat d merana dulu b redha....cuma b doa dgn Tuhan supaya kurangkan sikit beban yg b tanggung...b xnak nangis hari2 tiap masa...its not worth crying 4 u...u r juz an ordinary human being....the different is i love u....tu je....

congrats to me...senyum dalam sengsara....

no love no hug....i don't deserved it....

important????

juz a guess...what means important???

someone said that i'm a very important person in their life...but...it huz but...why they do such thing...sharing with someone else n not with me??? caring 4 someone else n not with me???? ifeel down...so sad....bkn aku x syg die....aku syg dia...tpi dia xpernah nak buat sume tu dgn aku...dulu mcm tu jgk....

sume ni punca dari blog...dulu, die share dgn ex die...skrg die wat dgn org lain lak...nape bkn dgn aku??? am i not an important person?? dia ckp i love u to me...but sharing the feeling with someone else....ape jgk tu??? aku xfaham ape2....mang la aku ckp aku ok...xde ape2...tpi realitinya...aku sgt2 terasa dgn ape yg die wat....mang la die ckp kawan...aku leh terima tpi ntah la...hati aku sakit...aku seperti xde makna dlm hidup dia....aku menangis sbb aku sgt xleh terima ape yg die wat ni....die ckp aku x percaya die...aku percaya die....aku percya die sgt2 tpi jgn la wat mcm ni....leh share dgn org lain....smpi bila aku nak tahan klu die asyik ckp ape yg die tulis kat blog tu tipu??? abis ape yg betul??? ape yg perlu aku percya?? aku sgt2 keliru...

xpernah aku balik dari gym dkat kul 1 pagi...umi abah marah sgt2...tpi aku xleh...sepanjang aku wat fitness kat gym tdi aku nangis...ntah la...mgkn aku cuba berlagak mcm xde ape2...tpi hakikatnya lain...hati aku tersentuh jgk....aku sgt sygkan dia....org lain tau die bulan..tpi aku?? bru tau tdi yg die tu bulan...ape maknenye ni???? die sentiasa nak wat aku keliru dgn identiti die...klu sygkan aku jgn wat mcm ni....bila dia wat mcm ni seolah-olah aku ni x berharga...hurm..biar lah...ape2 pun aku sgt2 berterima kasih padanya...sbb dia sudi menyayangi diri ini....

wat baby d....terima kasih sebab sudi syg b....u r the best...i tried to be strong but i couldn't....i'm a total disaster....but i won't give up....even i lost u...u r still the one i love....even i don't remember u tomorrow...juz know that i love u.....

-xoxo-

~baby b~

Monday, July 27, 2009

lie????

hurm...guess what??? aku kna tipu lagi....SHIT!!!!!!

aku percya die 100%...no doubt...but yet...still do the same thing...cheat behind my back....what a fuck!!!!!

lantak ko la manusia....malas aku nak ckp dah.....Allah je yg balas budi baik ko kat aku.....

geram tpi xguna nak marah2...dah tabiat manusia tu suka menipu...nak wat mcm mane...biar aku jdi malaikat ubah die tpi klu die xnak berubah nak wat mcm mana....terpulang....

Sunday, July 26, 2009

tada i ma....

tada i ma....means i'm back....back from what??? dunno...hahahahahahahaha....

today is a very long day for me....n i'm so tired too....pagi2 g training kat stadium..coach aku yg baik hati n hensem serta penyayang tu paksa aku training...dah la pagi tdi hujan renyai2...mau je x aku tertidur kat stadium tu...kwn2 ku punya la berang kat coach 'kesayangan' kitorg tu....dah la paksa org pas tu leh senyum simpul je....arrggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! geram!!!!!!!! kitorg training bagai nak gila smpi terlentang kepenatan kat stadium tu....hehehehe...tpi sekali-sekala paksa diri mcm ni best jgk...tau nape? aku dpt hilangkan tension, lupakan masalah aku n mcm2 lagi.....

pas je dri stadium aku bergegas lak g skola...adehh...aku kna bagi test kat bdk2 camping lak....test pertolongan cemas asas....dah lama aku xbagi test kat org...sib baik jgk sumenye berjalan lancar...n as usual cikgu aku masih lagi kagum dgn cara aku mengendalikan test yg susah tu....next week aku kna kuarkan markah dah....pening lak....balik je umah ade majlis keluarga...sambut birthday abah aku...penat jgn citer la..aku sempat rehat utk solat n mandi je....kul 6.30 ptg lak...aku cpt maghrib n berkejat ke gym...coach aku punya la baik hati tunggu aku bersiap...die tau aku nak skip kan...

kul 9 tdi bru balik dari gym...penat sungguh...tpi aku puas....actually...i miss someone so much....but i don't know why...juz don't know what happen...i'm confused maybe...dunno....arrgghh!!!! lantak la!!!! aku nak bahagia dgn hidup aku....

now...i'm happy with me...with who i am....yes i miss u...so much...damn much...but...there are something that i don't really know the reason....i love u....yes i love u...so much...my love never change for u...but yet...there are something that make me confused...it was u or me...i still don't know...trust...is all i have 4 u...n what have i left here is my heart...

i'm back n i want to be more positive....

-xoxo-peace....

Thursday, July 23, 2009

onto ni omedetto!!!

heheheehhe....tahniah abah!!!! ari ni hari jadi abah yg ke-? x tau la jgk...hehehehehehe....umi ckp mlm ni potong kek je..t ari sabtu bru wat majlis sambutan...hehehehehe...syg jgk mak aku tu kat bapak aku....

yg wat aku happy lagi...abah aku yg sibuk pasal graduation day aku....aku leh wat xkisah jer....hehehehehe....lucu jgk bile smlm die tnya bju aku 4 that day dah siap blum...die leh suruh siap aku g cri bju lagi...die yg bayar sume....adehh...semangat bapak aku ni...tpi ok la tu....xde la aku kelam kabut karang.....

smlm hari aku berjalan agak lancar....except 1 je...aku xleh text org coz aku xde cdit n hp aku lak wat hal....bile la aku nak dpt hp bru ni??? abah kata minggu ni...dah nak abis minggu dah ni....adehh....pening2....xpe sabar itu separuh dari iman....yg penting sabar insyaallah akan dpt....

esk aku kna wat preparation lak...4 our sport tournament....mental n physical kna ready....4 ari aku cuti...coach aku ckp gym tu sunyi jer....coach aku xtau aku g gym kwn die....hehehehehehe....klu die tau mampus aku kna marah.....sbnrnye, die rindu kat aku la tu....dah xde org die nak marah2 agaknye....sbnrnye...aku adalah org yg selalu kna marah dgn teruknye klu dgn coach aku tu...hehehehehe....tpi bagi aku xpe la.....die tu dah ade penyakit tua...hahahahahahaahaha!!!!!!!

i miss someone so much.....really missing that person....hurm....i wonder mcm mane la hari die smlm...ok ke x ok.....xtau la...i hope die akan ok je....miss u so much!!!!

aku happy sgt coz ari ni ari last aku ganti puasa aku!!!! yay!!!!!! pas ni boleh la aku aktif spt biasa...hurm...ape lagi aku nak tulis ek??? xde ape lagi kot...xpe la...pe2 hal t aku update lar....

-xoxo-peace!!!

Monday, July 20, 2009

flavour of life.....

rempah kehidupan...hehehehehe...sometimes sweet sometimes not....

love so sweet if we into it....hehehehehehe....lagu ni makes me realize that love doesn't always make us hurt...its also sweet if we can get it together.....

Love So Sweet - Arashi

ROMAJI

Kagayaita no wa kagami demo taiyou demo nakute kimi da to kizuita toki kara
Ano namida gumu kumo no zutto ue ni wa hohoemu tsuki love story mata hitotsu

Kizu tsuita yume wa kinou no kanata e
Sora ni hibike ai no uta

Omoide zutto zutto wasurenai sora futari ga hanarete ittemo
Konna suki na hito ni deau kisetsu nido to nai
Hikatte motto saikou no lady kitto sotto omoi todoku
Shinjiru koto ga subete love so sweet

Soko kara itsumo mieru yo ni
Kono te wo sora ni muke hirogaru kimi to no omoide
Ano katakuna de ijippari na
Boku wo kaeta kimi no te love story arukidasu

Magari kunetteta futatsu no tabiji wa
Koko de hitotsu niji ni nare

Omoide zutto zutto oikaketa yume futari ga tooku e ittemo
Donna tsurai yoru mo kujikesou na chikai demo
Waratte motto saigo no lady kitto sotto negai todoku
Akenai yoru wa nai yo love so sweet

Tsutae kirenu itoshisa wa
Hana ni natte machi ni futte
Doko ni itemo kimi wo "koko" ni kanjiteru

Omoide zutto zutto wasurenai sora futari ga hanarete ittemo
Konna suki na hito ni deau kisetsu nido to nai
Hikatte motto saikou no lady kitto sotto omoi todoku
Shinjiru koto ga subete
Akenai yoru wa nai yo
Shinjiru koto ga subete love so sweet



ENGLISH



Ever since I realised that what was shining wasn’t the mirror and it wasn’t the sun – it was you
The moon smiling way above the tearful clouds, one more love story

My wounded dreams are yesterday now
Let my love song ring out into the sky

Memory, I’ll never, ever forget this sky, even if we’re apart
There’ll never again be a season when I meet someone I love so much
Shine brighter, my greatest lady, this love is sure to softly reach you
Believing is everything, love so sweet

I hold out my hand to the sky so I can always see it from there
And memories of being with you spread out
I was so obstinate and stubborn
And you changed me, a love story is set in motion

May our two winding roads
Merge together here and become a rainbow

Memory, I’ve been chasing this dream all this time, even if we go far away
No matter how tough the night, even if you're about to give up on your promise
Smile more, my final lady, this love is sure to softly reach you
There’s no night that won’t give way to the dawn, love so sweet

This love I can’t tell you about
Becomes flowers that rain down on the town
No matter where I am, I feel you here

Memory, I’ll never, ever forget this sky, even if we’re apart
There’ll never again be a season when I meet someone I love so much
Shine brighter, my greatest lady, this love is sure to softly reach you
Believing is everything
There’s no night that won’t give way to the dawn
Believing is everything, love so sweet

watashi...omairako to tsukida......means...aku, sgt2 cintakan kamu....

love is sweet....love is beautiful....

Saturday, July 18, 2009

kuroshio....

sedih...aku sgt sedih...

pagi tdi aku ade acara yg sgt aku tunggu....track n field amatur tournament...aku amek acara lompat kijang....hehehhehehe...tpi yg wat aku sedih adalah aku dpt gangsa je....

aku sedih sgt...aku xdpt berikan yg terbaik utk team aku n utk diri aku sendiri....puncanya masa aku panaskan bdn pagi tdi...kaki aku terseliuh...n akibatnya larian aku masa start up x berapa bgus...aku ambil masa utk pecut n aptitude kaki aku xbtul...aku sgt2 tension...aku terpaksa wat 3 kali cubaan n yg aku dpt hanya lah gangsa....sedih sgt....

aku bru nak cipta rekod...coach aku adalah org yg paling bnyk sbarkan aku....die la yg teman aku g empangan n kitorg bercerita bnyk benda...die bagi aku nasihat2 yg sgt2 positif...n sorg lagi...pujuk aku...dlm telefon je...tpi sgt2 memberi aku semangat...my baby d...thanks my coach n my baby d....

next time i will get a gold 4 that...aku kna jga kaki aku elok2...hehehehehehe...coach aku ckp sejak aku training ni die bnyk tgk perubahan dlm diri aku....sume positif smpi kan org sindir pun aku senyum je...hehehehehehe....aku pun bangga jgk kat diri aku...aku berjaya bersabar dlm apa jua perkara....yay!!!

i'm positive with my life now...peduli la ape org ckp...i don't care...dah penat nak jga hati n perasaan org lain..now i'm concentrating on myself now....so lepas ni sape2 yg terasa sorry la ye....hehehehehe...jahat je bunyinye....well...life goes on...

next week aku nak pose lak..so masa ke gym akan berubah...dulu aku benci coach aku...skrg ni aku respect die...sbb die bnyk ajar aku erti hidup n erti tabah....kejayaan yg di tempa adalah berdasarkan setitis air mata dan peluh....itu lah prinsip kejayaan die...n aku pulak..."hard work will definitely being rewarded n the rest is to believe in yourself"...thats my principe utk berjaya....

so here i am....believing in myself that i can do it...better than i have now....

-xoxo-peace....

Friday, July 17, 2009

aishiteru yo....

hurm...what should i start???

aku sgt sygkan sorg ni.....syg sgt2 kat my baby d....aku xdpt text die coz aku xde cdit...hurm...aku bca blog die...n i got confused...but as my routine...no asking.....hope i'm not the broken dreams....

well...juz want to say that aishiteru yo....means i love you....hehehehhe....pengaruh bahasa jepun....now i wonder....adakah die rindu aku??? ape yg die wat klu xdpt text aku??? die sihat ke??? mcm2 going through my head....hurm....

xpe la...now i'm starting my day by miss my baby d~

-xoxo-peace!!!! tsukida a.k.a LOVE

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

grateful

i'm grateful coz of i found my own path to walk.....

saat aku rasa aku jatuh xdpt bgn kembali aku telah berjumpa dgn sesuatu yg sgt2 berharga dlm diriku...semangat ku yg kuat dan tidak pernah pudar pada suatu masa dulu...diri yg aku sembunyikan selama 4 tahun telah aku jumpai kembali....yokatta na.....

now i strat from scratch again....basic training goes to the middle harder n now more harder....i have to give all i have if i want to be successful....yes!! i must...so now i training n training....despite of it i can be more healthy than the old me....besides that i forgot all the problems that make my heads sick...the nonsense n unreasonable problem.....

tomorrow as usual, training goes on n i want to be on the top....if i can endure this though training then i can endure everything....i hope so....i pray day n night so i can though heart to face everything that comes to my life....

now, all i need is myself n semangat yg kuat....gud luck aqil!!!! ganbatte!!!!

-xoxo-peace!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

on tonieyokatta....

nasib baik.....

hurm....nak tulis ape lagi kat cni....dulu hana kim...skrg ni hana yori dango lak...btul status bkn penentu kebahagiaan....citer ni bnyk bagi pengajaran....

tpi yg paling penting shun oguri ade berlakon dlm citer ni...hehehehehhe...xtau la nape minat sgt kat die....maybe sbb die cool, cute, n suara halus die tu wat aku jatuh hati kot....hehehehehehehe...ape2 aje lar...

aku pun xtau nape aku leh t'fall kat die tu...hahahahahahha...leh ke mcm tu??? men2 je....aku syg kat org lain tpi org tu tetap xdpt tandingi shun oguri aku....ape pun...aku tetap syg org tu....die xde kat sisi aku tpi die selalu teman aku....die xde kat sisi aku tpi die selalu bagi kata2 semangat kat aku...die xde kat sisi aku tpi aku selalu dpt rasakan kehadirannya....

hurm....ade ke org tu? hehehehehe...i left a question here..again??

-xoxo-peace!!!!

Monday, July 13, 2009

still time.....

still...i live in this planet...breath the air n eat the food....still in the same environment where i work n i live...where all start day by day.....

its also where i start call this place as my place of zen...hehehehe...dunno whats the meaning....but still...the time never run away....we as a human still want to run away from time...no good 4 us....now i realize every second i live is a very precious time...people around me is still very important to me....

4 every second n every minute that i count give a huge meaning to me....what i understand is i still have to give the best in everything i do...never give up n always give commitment with all i have....soon i'll get my success....thus, i have to learn to be more responsible n learn to be very patient....i learn n still learning.....

hurm...back to today's story...i'm very busy today...why? aku terpaksa uruskan hal adik aku...die nak g belajar kat universiti tpi aku yg sibuk...xpe la..aku as his sister should help him...kan...klu x sape lagi nak tlg....sbb aku dah keje skrg so aku belikan die tie bru n kemeja bru...happy btul die bile dpt....ni adik lelaki aku yg pertama...aku sgt2 happy bile dpt tau die dpt sambung study die...aku xjdi hntr die esk sbb aku kna temankan dak2 kembar tu g klinik....dua2 xnak g klinik klu aku x ikut....hurm....terpaksa la tiket aku ditukar saat2 akhir...sib baik leh.....

pagi2 tdi aku g gym n then aku g klinik...tau nape? aku leh xsedar betis aku bengkak kna pukul ngan kayu hoki smlm coz happy sgt atas kemenangan team aku ni....pagi2 tdi aku pelik nape aku xleh gerak...so cancel g jogging aku wat fitness je kat gym...coach aku ckp aku ni urat dawai tulang besi....kaki dah bengkak biru sakit pon leh xsedar...aku serius x sedar bile masa kaki aku leh bengkak smpi mcm tu....hehehehehehe....sib baik la g klinik tdi xde ape2 yg jdi....ok la...doktor tu ckp aku leh lagi g hancurkan kaki aku tu klu aku nak...maknanye kaki aku ni leh pakai lagi tuk aktiviti lasak....hehehehehe....ok la tu kan?? hehehhehehee.....pas dari klinik aku g teman adik aku....teman die wat account n teman die g beli brg2 die...hehehehehehe...

kul 5.30 ptg kitorg balik umah then kul 7.40 mlm tdi aku g gym...lepak2 ngan coach aku n team mate aku...citer2 pasal kejayaan kitorg...huhuhuhuhuhu....sambil2 tu aku wat la exercise sikit2.....kaki aku ni pon dah kurang bengkaknye...hehehehehehe.....end of this week kitorg ade track n field amatur sport tournament....hurm...aku ikut acara lompat jauh....hehehehehehe....sepanjang aku aktif balik sukan bru aku tau rupanye aku ade keupayaan wat lompat jauh...aku xtau pun....hehehehehehhe....mudah2an aku dpt la cipta rekod....so skrg aku kna gigih berlatih dan sembuhkan kaki aku ni....huhuhuhuhuhu...

awal bln 8 ni lak kitorg ade sport tournament n daki gunung kinabalu....yes!!!! x sabar nak g....hurm...pas tu aku kna attend graduation day lak...adehh...bzy lak...hehehehehe....xpe2...perlahan-lahan...sejak aku aktif sukan ni aku dah xkisah ape2 pun...btul la ape doktor aku ckp...bile kite bersukan n rajin senaman kite akan dpt lupakan sume masalah yg jdi beban pada kite....now...i'm free...ape yg jdi, ape yg aku rasa masa aku last sem dulu aku dah lupekan...biar la...aku dah malas nak ingat n kenang...biar la....

awal tahun ni...aku mulakan azam tahun bru aku untuk mulakan hidup bru kerana aku org bru....13/11/2008....i born on that date....but i still carry the same body n the same face...but...what happen really confused me....seriously...i lost my normality as a human who full of motivation...i dunno....adakah sbb aku dah jatuh cinta kat org tu wat aku hilang kewarasan aku...aku pun xtau...ntah la...tpi yg aku tau...aku dah xleh kawal diri aku...bru aku tau yg diri aku yg dah mati cube nak dptkan kembali hak die....my God!!! aku terpaksa bertarung dgn akal dan perasaan aku...sgt2 seksa...aku benci kat org2 yg aku xknal...ntah la...tpi sume tu aku dah lupakan...dan aku hanya berdoa dgn Allah jika ade org yg btul2 ingin menganiaya diri ini aku hnya minta Tuhan yg membalasnya....itu je yg aku termampu....

now i'm new...i'm different...i let go everything...now i can endure everything....
heheheheehe....

-xoxo-peace....tsukida....

aishichau kara.....

i'll be in love.....thats the meaning of the title....

in love with who?? hurm.....someone who love me n believe in me....who can accept who i am...n always give me strength.....

well....i want to say aishiteru yo to that person.....so that person will know my feeling....hehehehehe....

but first...i'll be in love with myself...then to that person....but i guess i already fall 4 myself....thank godness....now...i'm not the same person that i know....i'm proud with myself today...now i'm strong...i can endure anything....i hope so....

dulu...aku xpandai nak kawal emosi...now...yo katta na...i can....hehehehehe.....hurm...life is beautiful....i proud coz i can live for today.....

YA ALLAH....andainya engkau takdirkan aku pergi menemui-MU....matikan lah aku dlm keadaan yg beriman dan engkau berilah kekuatan kepada org2 disekelilingku untuk menerima ketiadaanku....

Sunday, July 12, 2009

ganbatte...banzai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay!!!!! huhu!!!!!!!!!! we win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3-0....i scored...its hatric!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yes!!!!!!!..............suke sgt2!!!!! i'm so happy today........my mission accomplished....i want to prove that i can...n i already prove it....i'm so happy......
mang la mcm xcye...tpi aku sendiri pun xcye.....i scored on game bkn penalty....tu yg happy tu....dpt lak title penyerang terhebat n berbisa...hehehehehehehe.........

tpi yg sedihnye aku xdpt nak celebrate ngan my team n my coach...nape?? sbb ade kenduri doa selamat kat umah aku...adik aku dpt tawaran msuk universiti...syukur....aku happy sgt tgk adik aku dpt sambung belajar.....walaupun lambat dari org lain....tu la aku terpaksa cancel celebration party ngan my team...cian tgk muka dorg tdi bile i have to rush home....sib baik stadium n umah aku dekat je...leh la lari balik rumah.....

penat pun x abis lagi ni....tdi tu pun masa baca doa aku dah tersengguk-sengguk kat tepi kabinet...hehehehehehehe....owh b4 that aku kna layan sepupu kesygngan aku yg kembar tu...aedhh...tu yg wat aku tmbh2 penat lagi...tpi bila mengenangkan kejayaan yg aku ukir wat diri aku n team aku...aku sgt2 bangga n penat pun hilang sikit....ape yg berlaku pada hari ini aku xkan lupakan smpi bila2....ni la sejarah yg paling bermakna dlm hidup aku...melalui kejayaan ini aku dpt buktikan pada diri aku n org lain....walau mcm mana aku jatuh sekali pun...dgn berkat usaha, doa dan semangat yg aku ada aku boleh bgn semula.....i'm so proud to be me....

kenduri pon selesai n sume keje dah beres...leh la aku rehat pas ni....tpi esk aku tetap akan g stadium utk training n g gym tuk fitness....xkan la aku nak stop kan....tu je satu2 nya aktiviti yg leh wat aku lupa dgn sume masalah aku....bile dah latihan n berpeluh sgt best...hehehehehehe....ntah la...aku suka tgk org yg bersukan ni...xkira g gym ke atau ape ke...hehehehehe...yg penting..sihat kan....

aku happy sgt....aku dpt balik maruah n harga diri aku....i'm fit mental fizikal....now....i'm back....coach aku ckp tdi die sgt bangga tgk aku kat padang...main dgn penuh semangat...hehehehe...aku pun bangga jgk dpt beraksi kembali.....

ok la...skrg ni aku kna fikir mcm mana nak keep my health ni....hehehehehehe.....xpe...ganbatte!!!!!

banzai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-xoxo-peace!!!!!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

happy!!!!


ari ni aku sgt suke hati.....hehehehehehehe......


alkisah nye....aku balik dari gym kul 4 ptg tdi....pas tu umi n abah aku amek...ade gak la adik2 aku skali....pas tu abah kata nak bwk adik aku g beli kasut...so ikut je la...aku dlm keadaan penat lagi masa tu...sgt2 penat..biasa la....sehari ni aku training kan....


masa kat dlm kedai kasut tu.....abah tibe2 dtg kat aku....die ckp "k.ila klu mau kasut pilih la...abah bunjer" fuiyoo!!!!!!!!!! aku yg dlm keadaan penat trus jdi bersemangat....hehehehehe...aku pon ape lagi...pilih la kasut yg aku suka....tpi aku budget gak la tuk abah aku...adik aku pon nak pakai duit gak....so aku pilih yg aku rasa cantik n berbaloi walaupun murah....


dan inilah hasilnya.....


-xoxo-peace!!!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

tired..

huh?? sgt2 penat....letih pon ade...tpi puas hati...smlm aku ade friendship game ngan dak2 sekola aku dulu....



penat la tpi best sbb kitorg menang 3-0...hehehehehe...aku dpt score dua goal...yay!!!! sgt2 happy....masih menyengat jgk bisa aku dulu...yg paling aku suka masa kitorg lawan tdi kitorg smpt gaduh kat tgh2 padang....hahahahahahaha....coach aku bagai nak gila leraikan kitorg....gaduh smpi nak berpukul ngan kayu hoki lak tu....puncanya sbb dorg kata goal pertama aku tu tipu...mane xnye...bru 3 minit main aku dah score...mane dorg x bengang....hahahahahahha.....



yg paling xleh tahan masa aku ngah men ade jgk yg sempat ngorat aku...hahahahahahaha.......lucu btul...nak alihkan tumpuan aku la tu...mahap la ye...x minat...taktik lapuk la wat mcm tu...tpi cute jgk gurl tu...cume xde minat la skrg ni....bile aku dpt score goal ingatkan die dah putus asa...xjgk...sip mintak no phone lagi...tpi aku xbagi...xsuka kna kacau ngan org yg aku xknal....



esk dah game dah....latihan ari ni maybe yg ringan2 je kot....simpan tenaga tu esok....hurm...isnin lak nak hntr adik aku...syukur die dpt msuk u...akhirnya jalan gak die....minggu ni sgt sibuk bagi family aku....aku pun sibuk jgk...hehehehehehe...adik aku nak jgk aku ikut g hntr die...adehh...letih la dik....

ari ni aku akan berlatih dgn baik....ganbatte!!!!

-xoxo-peace!!!!!!!!

banzai!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahaha....hari ni sgt bengong bagi kitorg...nape???
coz sume bantai membuta kat grandstand....coach suh training sume tido...ape lagi....dari kul 8 smpi la kul 3.30 ptg tdi kitorg kna training kat gym....gile bosan gile penat....nasib bdn.....

penat jgn citer tpi sbb nak menang punya pasal ikut jgk la...mlm ni ade training agi kat padang....actually, aku lebih suka training mlm dari siang...coz xde org nmpk...hehehehehehehe....lucu kan??? so mlm ni kna g training jgk la....yg wat aku happy sgt ari ni....adelah dngr pengumuman bout hadiah kitorg klu kitorg menang....

dpt trip g sport tournament!!!!!!! wow!!!!!!! hadiah yg sgt2 berharga bagi seseorg ahli sukan....hehehehe....sume dah xnak g kl....pelik btul la dorg ni....tpi xpe....yg penting aku dpt daki lagi gunung kinabalu tu....aku nak buktikan bahawa aku dah x sakit....hehehehehehe.....

aku kna admit...skrg aku dah ketagih bersukan...klu leh aku nak tido je kat gym tu...x[un kat stadium tu....tpi xleh...hehehehehehe.....percya x coach aku puji aku?????hehehehehehe....die dah ngaku dulu pun die xsuka aku coz aku degil...tpi die teruja tgk semangat yg aku tunjukkan utk berjaya....

aku bru dpt satu ayat ni.....walaupun hati luka, tpi jgn otak luka....aku pun xfaham tpi aku akan cuba fahaminya....lagi satu...org yg tipu diri sendiri adalah org yg sunyi dan dlm kesakitan....hurm....xfaham jgk...xpe la...t klu ade masa aku fahamkan...hahahahahahahaha.....

back to the story...latihan esk adalah yg final b4 match...nervous la plak...pas game ni msti aku akan sgt2 sibuk...ni la keje aku....actually aku nak jdi atlet...tu yg kna kerja keras ni....klu ade rezeki ade la...klu x...jdi amatur pun xpe....

bru aku rasa hidupku bererti...dulu aku rasa aku tiada kwn...kini...rupanya ramai jgk kwn ku yg masih menghargai diri ini....syukur....aku rasa bahagia dgn apa yg aku ada....bnyk benda yg aku dah pelajari....n bnyk jgk kesalahan yg aku dah ambil pengajaran....

esk last day...aku nak menang!!!!! hahahahahahaha....yg penting menang....tu je misi aku skrg...aku nak tebus balik harga diri aku yg dah hilang....aku nak tebus balik maruah aku yg lemah....aku kna jadi kuat n bersemangat balik.....

ganbatte!!!!!

-xoxo-peace

training....

latihan....training...same jer...huhuhuhu!!!!!

hurm....esk ade training...aku xtido lagi...aku bosan...aku rindukan seseorg....tpi...ah, lupakan...klu rindu bkn leh wat ape pun....

esk coach aku msti marah aku....gerenti beres nyer....ye la...lewat tido...dah la brape ari ni training dlm ujan...ade jgk la yg demam masa game nti...ishk!!! takut nyer!!!!!!!!hurm....team mate aku sume dah sepakat....klu menang nak wat trip g kl....alahai...kl je ke??? dorg xnak g tmpt yg jauh2...takut kna H1N1....adehh....pelik kwn2 aku ni.....aku ckp kat dorg elok lagi klu g pulau....atau pun g daki gunung....the result 50-50...sib baik jgk la kwn2 aku ni sume yg jenis tahan lasak...outdoor punya org...boleh la tahan....

aku bkn xnak g kl...tpi...xde ape la....hurm....tggl 2 ari je nak training...pas tu dah game...sgt2 takut sbnrnye....mana x nye...after 3-4 years aku stop sukan now i make a come back...aku takut je aku kekok nti....coach aku bnyk bagi semangat kat aku....dia ckp aku ni boleh cuma x yakin je...btul jgk ape yg die ckp tu....hehehehehehehehe...............

GANBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehehe....hurm....kaki dah kuat, bdn pun dah rasa ringan sket...tggl nak cekalkan hati n rilexkan minda....tu je....hehehehehe....ape2 pun...kitorg msti menang!!!!! klu x pun aku msti menang utk diri aku sendiri....mesti!!!! aku kna buktikan yg aku x lemah dan aku bkn siapa2...aku adalah AQIL!!!!

-xoxo-peace!!!!!!!!!!!!

GANBATTE MISERU YO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

tsukida....

hehehehe...lately pengaruh jepun sgt menular dlm diri ini...hahahahahaha...ntah la...

hurm...aku sgt2 penat skrg ni...plus letih...bru tdi aku struggle nak pecahkan rekod basikal mesin tu...hahahahaha...xdpt jgk...hehehehehe....xpe la, esk leh try lagi...tdi aku kna ketuk ngan coach aku...aku tido kat padang lgi pagi tdi...elok je melingkar kat grandstand....hahahahahaha...tpi bkn aku je...ade lagi dua tiga org team mate aku....kitorg di surh lari 20 round padang...hukuman yg paling biasa untuk org2 yg mengantuk...pas tu aku trus dah x ngantuk...

aku bru balik dari gym sbnrnye ni....sgt2 penat dan letih...owh lupe nak ckp...aku dpt sponsor kayu hoki...wow!!!! best giler!!!!! kali ni pakaian n kelengkapan sukan kitorg NIKE yg sponsor....fulamak!!!!!!!!....untung kali ni....hehehehehehehe....aku pun ape lagi....melaram ler...hihihihihihihi....paling best dpt keahlian percuma nike...so next time klu nak beli brg2 nike dpt la diskaun....

ok...cukup ngan sponsor...balik kpda training lak....training pagi tdi dlm keadaan hujan renyai2...so abis sejuk kaki aku yg besi ni n terpaksa la aku buat warm up je....tu pun still sakit lagi...biasa la...besi...tpi x lama lagi besi ni nak dibuang coz lutut aku n ligamen lain dah ok dah...syukur...pas ni xde la insiden kaki sejuk....

petang ni aku xturun g gym...so leh la aku rehatkan bdn ni....hurm...penat la plak...tpi syok n aku happy sgt dpt buat mende2 ni...xde la asyik termenung n ntah ape2 je la....paling syok bile aku tgk team aku berlatih...bnyk main dari berlatih....selalu la coach aku yg hensem tu menjerit...hahahahahahahaa...padan ngan muka die yg x hensem tu....perasan je lebih...ishk3 aku ni...ade ke kutuk coach sendir...en.coach....mahapkan saye ye....huhuhuhu!!!

ape2 pun...esk training mcm biasa jgk...n klu x silap aku pakcik aku yg coach tu pon akan join sekaki...mati la aku klu aku x wat betul2...ade la yg kna sepak kuar padang....hehehehehehe...dasyat sikit pakcik aku tu....aku pon takut gak....huhuhuhu...

hurm...xsabar rasanya nak beraksi kat game tu...dah lama sgt x sport mcm ni...excited jgn citer...yg penting lawan kitorg adalah bdk2 amatur yg penah kitorg beat dulu...yes!!! coach ckp ade chance nak menang klu sume x malas...hehehehehe...die tu mcm tau2 je perangai kitorg yg malas ni....ape2 pun...aku tetap dpt posisi favorite aku...striker...yahoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehehehehehe....bdn aku pun dah ringan...lari pon dah x semput...ade chance la nak jdi gila kat padang nti....hurm....xsabar nye la hai.....

ape2 pun...esk aku g training lagi...n gym x terkecuali...ptg ni gym xde coz mlm ni kan mlm jumaat...so ade kelonggaran di sini....hehehehehehe....

ok la..pe2 hal aku akan tulis lagi kat sini...dah mcm diari dah blog aku ni....adios-sayonara!!!!

-xoxo-peace!!!!

bila penat....

nandayo.....

mcm ni la bila dah penat sgt.....training bagai nak gila....bile dah penat jdi susah nak tidur...
esk pagi bru tersengguk-sengguk kat tgh2 padang....pagi tdi nasib aku x berapa baik....tgh aku dok layan ngantuk....kepala aku kna rembat ngan bola hoki...fuh!!!! sakit jgn citer la...
naik benjol pale aku....mcm mane la aku leh x sedar...ishk3....takut2...

esk training mcm biasa lagi....sgt2 penat tpi dgn cra ni je aku leh lupekan sume mslh n kesedihan dlm hati n off course la aku sentiasa berdoa moga2 hati ku tenang dan damai.....hehehehehehehe...back to the story...aku sgt2 ngantuk pagi tdi....mana x nye...mlm sblum tu aku tido kul 3 pagi....wat assignment pakcik aku ni ha....hurm....

tpi yg elok nye....aku x cpat penat bile wat keje...hurm...maybe sbb aku dah dpt balik tenaga aku...ape pun...i'm the biggest loser!!!!! yay!!!!

training oh training.....best training ni tpi tu je la...penat jgn citer la....gym tu plak dah mcm rumah kedua aku....smpi mak aku pun terpengaruh dah...die nak buat gym kat umah lak...adoyai!!!!! ape2 je la...mlm ni lak aku bosan smpi xleh tido....hehehehehehe.....ntah la....bosan sungguh....

sbnrnye aku ngah download citer favorite aku ni....hehehehehe...ade extended version la....ishk3...klu dah minat kan...ape nak wat....huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....

ok la...xtau dah nak merepek ape lagi kat sini....aku nak berangan dulu....adios!!!!!

-xoxo- ganbatte-peace!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

kawai i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurm...kawaii....means cute....tu bahasa jepun...hahahahahaha.....


i like him!!!!! so cute n charming!!!!! arghhh!!!!!!!! nak tau sape????


ni die....


-xoxo- peace!!!!

ganbatte miseru yo.....


it has been very long time i didn't write here....well tonite i was bored...so i have courage to write again....


hehehehehe....weird title....GANBATTE MISERU YO a.k.a. I'LL TRY MY BEST....actually aku dpt tajuk ni dari citer favorite aku....citer yg wat aku jdi bersemangat skrg....HANAZAKARI NO KIMITACHI E.....short term...HANA KIMI...hahahahahaha.....citer ni best giler...aku suke citer ni coz ingatkan aku zaman skola dulu...nakal jgn citer tpi yg aku paling rindu masa zaman2 aku jdi atlet dulu...fuh!!!!


now...i start from scratch....first jogging waktu pagi...biasa la tu....then aku g gym dua kali sehari....fuh dasyat gak!!! Coach aku??? hurm....cikgu pendidikan jasmani yg paling aku benci sekali....cikgu zul...nape la die leh jadi coach aku....mang letih...pagi2 die akan kol kejutkan aku...pas tu tepat kul 6, die akan dtg tunggu depan rumah bawak aku g stadium utk jogging then pegi gym die tu....fuh!!!!


itu la aktiviti aku sejak beberapa hari ni....sgt letih tpi seronok...aku dah jumpe kembali diri aku yg kuat tu....hehehehehehe...mcm xcye...dlm masa yg sama berat aku dah jadi 55kg...wow!!! aku xpenah mimpi pon nak ade berat mcm tu....hehehehehe..syukur alhamdulillah...berkat usaha aku akhirnya aku dpt jgk....walaupun aku xberapa suka perangai coach aku tu....tpi die bnyk bagi semangat dan nasihat kat aku....


aku sgt2 hargai....jadual aku sama seperti jadual atlit2 dia yg lain....sgt padat....kadang2 klu die rajin die akan bawak aku training ngan atlet2 die...alah bia tegal biasa...masa mula2 tu mang hari2 aku kejang otot...skrg dah xdah..dah biasa....rekod terbaru aku cipta pagi tdi....aku berjaya keliling padang bola saiz standard 10 kali pusing dlm masa 1 jam 30 minit....pergh!!! sblm ni nak wat 5 round pun aku dah semput....hahahahahahahahaha.....


aku sgt2 bangga ngan pencapaian aku....owh...yg wat aku lagi excited ni....next week kitorg i mean aku n ade la kwn2 aku yg lain tu....kitorg akan join hockey game....perlawanan persahabatan antara team amatur....fuh!!! x sabar rasanya...esk akan bermula la training yg sgt2 memenatkan....coach yg sama tpi latihan yg berbeza...nasib baik aku dah kna kerahan tenaga....i'm juz exhausted coz i try to catch my energy back....almaklum lah....berat dah bertambah...n aku dah lama sgt x bersukan....since i have my knee injury aku dah jarang bersukan...tpi skrg aku nak bersukan balik...coz sport is a way to get motivate....


aku rasa sgt2 teruja....hehehehehehe...well dah lewat malam ni aku xngantuk lagi...ngah tgk citer favorite aku tu....ngah tgk SANO IZUMI, ASHIYA MIZUKI N NAKATSU SUICHI.....arghhh!!!!! rindu zaman nakal2 dulu!!!!!!!! aku rindu kwan2 aku...walaupun bru bbrp ari lepas kitorg wat reunion xrasmi...aku sgt2 rindu dorg...hehehehehe....sume nak tunjuk taring masa tu...hahahahahaha....hana kimi...


hurm...ape aku nak wat skrg ni???? aku xngantuk wei!!!!! hehehehehehe....aku kna tidur jgk klu x esk aku akan baring kat tgh2 padang tu n tido....xkan la kan??? klu la coach aku tau aku tido lewat...mati la aku kna round padang bola 20 kali....dah penah kna dah....tpi x serik2 lagi....hehehehehe....hurm...aku kna tido jgk....ok2....


aku harap aku akan terus sihat utk bersukan!!!! GANBATTE!!!!!


-xoxo- peace!!!!