still time.....

still...i live in this planet...breath the air n eat the food....still in the same environment where i work n i live...where all start day by day.....

its also where i start call this place as my place of zen...hehehehe...dunno whats the meaning....but still...the time never run away....we as a human still want to run away from time...no good 4 us....now i realize every second i live is a very precious time...people around me is still very important to me....

4 every second n every minute that i count give a huge meaning to me....what i understand is i still have to give the best in everything i do...never give up n always give commitment with all i have....soon i'll get my success....thus, i have to learn to be more responsible n learn to be very patient....i learn n still learning.....

hurm...back to today's story...i'm very busy today...why? aku terpaksa uruskan hal adik aku...die nak g belajar kat universiti tpi aku yg sibuk...xpe la..aku as his sister should help him...kan...klu x sape lagi nak tlg....sbb aku dah keje skrg so aku belikan die tie bru n kemeja bru...happy btul die bile dpt....ni adik lelaki aku yg pertama...aku sgt2 happy bile dpt tau die dpt sambung study die...aku xjdi hntr die esk sbb aku kna temankan dak2 kembar tu g klinik....dua2 xnak g klinik klu aku x ikut....hurm....terpaksa la tiket aku ditukar saat2 akhir...sib baik leh.....

pagi2 tdi aku g gym n then aku g klinik...tau nape? aku leh xsedar betis aku bengkak kna pukul ngan kayu hoki smlm coz happy sgt atas kemenangan team aku ni....pagi2 tdi aku pelik nape aku xleh gerak...so cancel g jogging aku wat fitness je kat gym...coach aku ckp aku ni urat dawai tulang besi....kaki dah bengkak biru sakit pon leh xsedar...aku serius x sedar bile masa kaki aku leh bengkak smpi mcm tu....hehehehehehe....sib baik la g klinik tdi xde ape2 yg jdi....ok la...doktor tu ckp aku leh lagi g hancurkan kaki aku tu klu aku nak...maknanye kaki aku ni leh pakai lagi tuk aktiviti lasak....hehehehehe....ok la tu kan?? hehehhehehee.....pas dari klinik aku g teman adik aku....teman die wat account n teman die g beli brg2 die...hehehehehehe...

kul 5.30 ptg kitorg balik umah then kul 7.40 mlm tdi aku g gym...lepak2 ngan coach aku n team mate aku...citer2 pasal kejayaan kitorg...huhuhuhuhuhu....sambil2 tu aku wat la exercise sikit2.....kaki aku ni pon dah kurang bengkaknye...hehehehehehe.....end of this week kitorg ade track n field amatur sport tournament....hurm...aku ikut acara lompat jauh....hehehehehehe....sepanjang aku aktif balik sukan bru aku tau rupanye aku ade keupayaan wat lompat jauh...aku xtau pun....hehehehehehhe....mudah2an aku dpt la cipta rekod....so skrg aku kna gigih berlatih dan sembuhkan kaki aku ni....huhuhuhuhuhu...

awal bln 8 ni lak kitorg ade sport tournament n daki gunung kinabalu....yes!!!! x sabar nak g....hurm...pas tu aku kna attend graduation day lak...adehh...bzy lak...hehehehehe....xpe2...perlahan-lahan...sejak aku aktif sukan ni aku dah xkisah ape2 pun...btul la ape doktor aku ckp...bile kite bersukan n rajin senaman kite akan dpt lupakan sume masalah yg jdi beban pada kite....now...i'm free...ape yg jdi, ape yg aku rasa masa aku last sem dulu aku dah lupekan...biar la...aku dah malas nak ingat n kenang...biar la....

awal tahun ni...aku mulakan azam tahun bru aku untuk mulakan hidup bru kerana aku org bru....13/11/2008....i born on that date....but i still carry the same body n the same face...but...what happen really confused me....seriously...i lost my normality as a human who full of motivation...i dunno....adakah sbb aku dah jatuh cinta kat org tu wat aku hilang kewarasan aku...aku pun xtau...ntah la...tpi yg aku tau...aku dah xleh kawal diri aku...bru aku tau yg diri aku yg dah mati cube nak dptkan kembali hak die....my God!!! aku terpaksa bertarung dgn akal dan perasaan aku...sgt2 seksa...aku benci kat org2 yg aku xknal...ntah la...tpi sume tu aku dah lupakan...dan aku hanya berdoa dgn Allah jika ade org yg btul2 ingin menganiaya diri ini aku hnya minta Tuhan yg membalasnya....itu je yg aku termampu....

now i'm new...i'm different...i let go everything...now i can endure everything....
heheheheehe....

-xoxo-peace....tsukida....

aishichau kara.....

i'll be in love.....thats the meaning of the title....

in love with who?? hurm.....someone who love me n believe in me....who can accept who i am...n always give me strength.....

well....i want to say aishiteru yo to that person.....so that person will know my feeling....hehehehehe....

but first...i'll be in love with myself...then to that person....but i guess i already fall 4 myself....thank godness....now...i'm not the same person that i know....i'm proud with myself today...now i'm strong...i can endure anything....i hope so....

dulu...aku xpandai nak kawal emosi...now...yo katta na...i can....hehehehehe.....hurm...life is beautiful....i proud coz i can live for today.....

YA ALLAH....andainya engkau takdirkan aku pergi menemui-MU....matikan lah aku dlm keadaan yg beriman dan engkau berilah kekuatan kepada org2 disekelilingku untuk menerima ketiadaanku....