important????

juz a guess...what means important???

someone said that i'm a very important person in their life...but...it huz but...why they do such thing...sharing with someone else n not with me??? caring 4 someone else n not with me???? ifeel down...so sad....bkn aku x syg die....aku syg dia...tpi dia xpernah nak buat sume tu dgn aku...dulu mcm tu jgk....

sume ni punca dari blog...dulu, die share dgn ex die...skrg die wat dgn org lain lak...nape bkn dgn aku??? am i not an important person?? dia ckp i love u to me...but sharing the feeling with someone else....ape jgk tu??? aku xfaham ape2....mang la aku ckp aku ok...xde ape2...tpi realitinya...aku sgt2 terasa dgn ape yg die wat....mang la die ckp kawan...aku leh terima tpi ntah la...hati aku sakit...aku seperti xde makna dlm hidup dia....aku menangis sbb aku sgt xleh terima ape yg die wat ni....die ckp aku x percaya die...aku percaya die....aku percya die sgt2 tpi jgn la wat mcm ni....leh share dgn org lain....smpi bila aku nak tahan klu die asyik ckp ape yg die tulis kat blog tu tipu??? abis ape yg betul??? ape yg perlu aku percya?? aku sgt2 keliru...

xpernah aku balik dari gym dkat kul 1 pagi...umi abah marah sgt2...tpi aku xleh...sepanjang aku wat fitness kat gym tdi aku nangis...ntah la...mgkn aku cuba berlagak mcm xde ape2...tpi hakikatnya lain...hati aku tersentuh jgk....aku sgt sygkan dia....org lain tau die bulan..tpi aku?? bru tau tdi yg die tu bulan...ape maknenye ni???? die sentiasa nak wat aku keliru dgn identiti die...klu sygkan aku jgn wat mcm ni....bila dia wat mcm ni seolah-olah aku ni x berharga...hurm..biar lah...ape2 pun aku sgt2 berterima kasih padanya...sbb dia sudi menyayangi diri ini....

wat baby d....terima kasih sebab sudi syg b....u r the best...i tried to be strong but i couldn't....i'm a total disaster....but i won't give up....even i lost u...u r still the one i love....even i don't remember u tomorrow...juz know that i love u.....

-xoxo-

~baby b~