Saturday, January 23, 2010

over you...

this is a song...over you....this song is introduced by a friend that i love....

now....to continue my life...i have to be strong....i have to realize that i'm strong even in any time i can be gone....

life...send me a happy life so i can forget apa yg aku harus lalui untuk menyambung nyawa di atas muka bumi ini.....

beri lah aku peluang untuk merasai bahagia andai aku ditakdirkan untuk pergi dalam masa terdekat ini....

cuma satu harapan ku....aku ingin bertemu 'dia' sblm aku menutup mata.....

Monday, January 18, 2010

to the twin

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR TWINS....

ari ni birthday dak2 kembar tu yg ketiga tahun...dah besr dah dorg...dah faham bnyk bende...
n yg kerap kali dorg tnye...nape k.ila suka nangis lpas ckp dgn kawan???

hurm...bende yg tu paling xleh nak elak....but i give them something special today....i treat them with a ben 10's cake!!! they r so excited smpi syg nak potong kek tu...my God!!!

hehehehehe...suke benar dpt kek ben 10 tu...xpe la...asal dorg happy...that money is worth tgk dorg happy n rebut peluk cium juz want to say thank you....

i'm so happy for them...






sick...

sakit ni wat aku jdi xberdaya...tpi aku pasrah...n paling xleh blah...sehari pas aku operation lutut ni...aku ikut la father kesygngan aku tu p amek gmbr...hehehehe....aku xsangka dgn bnyk gerak lutut aku leh jdi kuat....bgus la tu...now i know....

aku pon teruskan la tugas aku amek gmbr...penantin tu bru nak masuk 17 tahun...yg laki plak bru nak masuk 20 tahun...so snang citer dorg panggil aku akak la....adehh...actually org2 kat situ sume knal aku...anak pakcik kadiru la katakan...adehh...malu seh!!! yg palin aku xleh lupe dorg leh tnye aku suami aku mane? alahai dik...akak xkawen lagi la...bru abis study...dlm otak aku fikir dorg ni msti jenis yg suka kawen awal2...hehehehehe...xelok gelakkan org...

aku pon dngan control macho nye amek la gmbr...aku suh dorg posing sana posing sni...xkekok n malu lgsg..kire sesi tu berjalan lancar la tpi segan la...aku pon xreti nak posing yg mcm aku suh dorg wat tu....dorg dgn senang je wat...adehh!! adik2 penantin ni lagi pandai dari aku yg dah nak masuk 22 tahun ni....

n lagi yg xleh tahan...kat tmpt tu sikit punya ramai dak2 pengkid...adehh!!! yg dorg lak siap nak no tel aku la...nak knal la...ayah aku pelik je tgk anak die kna urat ngan pengkid...die pon tnye...nape la ramai2 lelaki kat sini pengkid jgk yg perasan k.ila?? adusss!!!! ape aku nak jawab????

tahan je la komen die.....aku pon xlah layan dak2 tu....wat masa ni single lagi baik...biar la...cinta aku still kat d..all of it...xde bahagi2....aku dah xletak pape harapan dah...

cuma aku harap agar diri ini akan kecapi kebahagiaan di saat2 akhir hayat ini...apa yg aku perlukan adalah seseorang yg boleh berkongsi suka dan duka kehidupan ini....

Friday, January 15, 2010

BROKEN HEARTED BY BEYONCE

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

CRY

"Cry"

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

so long...

sudah cukup lama aku meninggalkan halaman ini tanpa apa2 perubahan....

bkn disengajakan tetapi aku sedang mencari ilham di kala hati dirundung kesepian dan kesakitan....di kala ini aku sedang membina kembali hati ini yang telah banyak disakiti...

di kala ini aku rasa sudah cukup kuat untuk berhadapan dengan apa sahaja...insyaallah...
aku juga insan yang lemah...mudah kalah dengan perasaan...sgt sensitif...tidak dinafikan...

bnyk perkara yang berlaku sepanjang kesenyapan ku dari dunia blogging ini...ntah la....
semua perkara yang berlaku membuatkan aku sgt lemas untuk berhadapan dengan dunia maya ini...cukup aku terluka sekali kerana jika aku terluka lagi kali ini kemaafan akan sukar untuk diraih dari diri ini....bkn kejam tetapi aku juga ada perasaan...smpi bila maruah diri ini harus dipijak seolah-olah ia tidak berharga....

ah...aku sudah pergi jauh nampaknya....mungkin juga kebelakangan ini aku kerap memikirkan tentang diri ini dan hati ini...jika hati ini seperti kulit sudah terlalu banyak calar dan lukanya....tetapi dengan peredaran masa aku ubati hati ini....

maaf andai diri ini tidak mampu untuk berdiri teguh lagi....

Monday, September 28, 2009

bored...

well....

as we now...life goes on...but we cry...we laugh n we do all at the same time....
time by time passes...n left all the bad memories behind...
as we continue walking....only good memories we bring along...

n...we see each other...from eye to eye n heart to heart....
we love each other so much...

n we made a promise n a vow....
that no matter what we will love each other till the end....

coz whats life without u n i make it through these days is all because of u dear...
sometimes i get mad n sometimes i laugh it but its all becoz....

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH....
IF U READ THIS DEAR....KNOW THAT I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART.....