the beginning..........

today is the beginning....how i want to change....
the starting at 5.30 a.m. this morning...i woke up for subuh prayer n take a rest a while...
maklum la...xbrpa nak sihat sgt....

n i try not to think much bout her...n what had happen yesterday....only God know how i miss her so much!!!!
i feel so lonely...i don't know...missing her make me fell lonely...

dear God...if this is a punishment for me...then i take it....
dear d....i really miss u...i don't know how i can make it without u....

now...i try to be normal...i really hope that our relationship can be normal again....

deserved me right....

today is a very long day for me....i'm sick n i'm tired...
yeah...sick makes u more tired than usual...

something happen today...between me n my partner...its all my fault...
i yg silap coz i keep pushing n ni la ape yg i dpt...

deserved me right...i xnak pun semua ni berlaku....its juz...God!!!
this is it...tonight is the end...

tomorrow is the new day for me...n i promise to myself...i will change at least for somebody who love me (i rasa die syg)....n i pon syg die jgk....

today is the last day 4 me....n i hope theres a sunshine waiting 4 me tomorrow....

goodbye past n welcome future....i will be a new man....
thats my promise to myself n someone who love me....

mood....

xde mood nak menulis ari ni...ntah la...
maybe sbb sakit kot...jap g aku nak g klinik...
harap2 xteruk la coz aku rasa lain mcm je....xpenah aku asthma smpi mcm ni sekali....
ape2 pun aku akan update la..

see ya all!!!

hello there!!!i'm back from clinic....guess what??? my condition become worse....oh no!!!
i want to be healthy....hurm...sick makes me more sick...hehehehehehe...ape la mksdnye tu...
hurm...maybe i miss someone so much....just a guesses but i know its true....
ape pun...aku kna mkn ubat n eat something....
aku nak jalani hidup aku tanpa rindu sgt2 kat org tu....

ishk...susah sakit ni sbnrnye....klu aku xboleh bernafas ngan btl lagi ptg ni...mlm ni aku akan dirujuk ke hospital lak...
OMG!!! how i hate hospital!!!xnak (x100)!!!!!

utk org yg aku sayangi...aku akan jaga kesihatan aku....

twins is here....

well....i nak g tau kat cni...about my love-the twins...
really love them so much...coz..they r so sweet n cute....
really closed to me n i jga dorg dari kecil lagi...hehehehehehe
sorg nama mohd.fauzi n mohd.fauzan ....tpi yg peliknye...
adik lagi nakal dari abg...abg ni lembut sket..adik die kasar...
tpi jgn buli dua2...coz they really care each other...hehehe....
i really miss both of them...dah lama xjumpe dorg...maybe esk kot i jumpe...

they r so funny n so sweet...sgt2 nakal n xsuka duduk diam...hurm....pelik btl...
nakal sgt2...terutamanye fauzan...fauzi tu lak kuat nangis...fauzan kuat merajuk...
fauzan sgt sensitif...fauzi cepat terasa....

both of them suka ngan my parent...so closed...especially with my umi...
maybe sbb umi yg jga dorg dari kecil...sbb dorg rapat ngan umi dorg rapat gak ngan kitorg...
so senang citer kitorg ni lah tmpt dorg bermanja...

untuk dia....

awk...ite syg awk...ite xnak berpisah ngan awk...awk jgn la wat ite nangis lagi....
ite xnak sakit ari2...ite tau....perasaan awk dah berubah terhadap ite...ite minta maaf...
but pls...don't...ite xnak jdi org baru once again...xsanggup...sedar2 je xknal sape2...ite xnak lupakan awk....ite nak ingat awk selalu....

awk la segalanya bagi ite...kwn ite, bestfriend ite, baby d ite....awk la sumenye...
ite tau awk marah...maybe awk benci jgk...tpi...

awk...andai ite dan awk berpisah...awk ingat la ite sbb mungkin ite xdpt nak ingat awk...awk jgn la lupekan ite...smpi mati pun ite syg awk coz awk la org yg berjaya curi hati ite....walaupun ite dah xingat awk suatu ari nti, ite doa kat Tuhan supaya kembalikan ingatan yg ade awk...ite tetap nak ingat awk...

klu awk rindu ite...kenang la sume kenangan kite dua....
salam manis...ite yg sayang awk....
xoxo

at last....

i'm happy...at this hour...ade jgk org yg ingat kat i...
ann...i love u dear...hehehehehe...die ym i n said she miss me n ask me about sipadan...
at least ade gak org yg ingat i walaupun i jauh...

really miss them...zaty, haqim, ann, mumy n ayah...n especially..dear eid...
OMG!!!! MISS THEM SO MUCH!!!

ann g tau eid gone to TS... miss that place...
hopefully die xlupekan i bile die ke situ...
memorable place for both of us...

xpe la...hopefully i can meet them again n xde pun perasaan yg berubah between all of us...
one more thing is...
rindu nak kna buli walaupun ade masanye sensitif but...
really miss it...

for my love one.....

Oh Bulan..
Enggan melayan diriku lagi
Pabila airmata membasahi pipi
Dan lagu lagu di radio seolah olah memerli aku
Pabila kau bersama yang lain

Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
Yang masih bersemadi untukmu
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan di sebalik senyumanmu itu
Kau juga menyintai aku

Ku enggan berpura pura ku bahagia
Ku enggan melihat kau bersama si dia
Oh ku akui cemburu
Mula menular dalam diri
Pabila kau bersama yang lain

Adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
Yang masih bersemadi untukmu
Dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
Di sebalik senyuman mu itu
Kau juga merindui aku

Pabila kau merenung matanya
Ku rebah jatuh ke bumi
Di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
Seperti ku bernafas dalam air
Adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
Yang masih.. bersemadi untukmu
Dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
Di sebalik senyuman mu itu
Kau juga merindui aku
Oh...

Dan Sebenarnya ..
Dan Sebenarnya .. Aku rindu ..
Dan Sebenarnya ..
Dan Sebenarnya .. Aku tak mampu ..
tanpamu..

xoxo-