28/08

all things happen start with this date...28/08/2007....masa tu aku ngah muda seh...hehehehehe...aku jumpe die ni kat uni tmpt aku study...at first kitorg ni knal asyik gaduh jer...tpi..sehari aku xtgk muka die aku dah risau dah...sbb aku xde tmpt nak gaduh...sunyi je klu sehari aku xgaduh ngan die...hehehehehe...

mula tu kitorang kwn je..lama2 tu aku dah rasa lain...it start with a kiss n we seal it until 3 years...tpi skrg kitorg dah break dah...aku tulis entry ni pon coz ari ni adalah anniversary kitorg tu pun if we still together...but now dah xkan..so it will become a memorable date to remember...aku sgt syg kat die ni..xpenah2 aku syg org len mcm aku wat kat die...aku jaga sume keperluan dan kehendak die smpi lah assignment pon aku kna paksa die siapkan....heheheheh...klu x...xrasa la kitorg pegang dip sesame....

tpi tu dulu...now aku dah xde pape ngan die....kwn pon aku xtau la...aku tau die marah n benci sgt kat aku sbb aku yg mintak nak break ni...aku bkn ape..aku tau die xtahan dgn long distance relationship ni...utk memudahkan die..aku mintak break...its not easy for me to said that 'kite break la'....masa aku ckp mcm tu pon aku nangis....aku sebak n sedih sgt....

aku mang xnak die sedih...aku nak die happy always...bile die happy, aku pon happy...n bile die xingat kat aku die akn lebih happy...mcm2 yg kitorg lalui bersama sepanjang tempoh 3 tahun kitorg couple ni...biasa r...gaduh tu mcm dah xde ape je...sbb pas tu aku yg akan mintak maaf kat die...hurm...aku dah terlalu bnyk mengalah n now..i dont want...

biar la die belajar utk lupekan aku...g pun..aku ni bkn lah yg terbaik utk die..dah lah duk jauh, susah nak dtg tgk die...aku sentiasa harapkan yg die akn tersenyum...aku yakin die pasti leh bahagia dgn pilihan die skrg ni...mang lah aku agak terguris bile die ckp yg die dah ade pengganti aku mcm aku rasa aku bru mati, tanah masih merah g die dah cri org ganti tmpt aku dlm hidup die...adehh...pedih seh..tpi nak wat mcm mane..tu hidup die n keputusan die....

awk...sy mintak maaf sgt sepanjang 3 tahun ni klu sy selalu sakitkan hati awk..sy tau sy jahat...selalu wat awk marah n selalu cari gaduh kat awk...sy selalu wat awk nangis...maafkan sy..halalkan segala ape yg terkurg dan terlebih yg awk kasi kat sy..maafkan sy sbb terpaksa wat awk mcm ni...sy syg awk sgt2..cuma satu je harapan sy kat awk...andai ditakdirkan sy pergi menyahut seruan Ilahi..dtglah berziarah ke kubur sy...

p/s....sy syg awk smpi bila2...

NOT MUCH

hurm...actually i dont know what to say here...well...the result for my last post is...don't go...means i xpegi KL. maybe not this time...i will have another chance...

lately i feel empty, lonely, lost n everything...arghhh!!!!!!!! i got to admit i lost my best friend...my love n my everything...its my own fault actually...dunno...

well...even though i feel lost...but i'm happy coz that person finally have the happiness...u will be love n now its dream comes true...

may God always bless u n u will find ur true love n ur true happiness...Amin...

whatever it is u always be the one i love so much n u always in me...

back to KL....

hurm...lately, a lot of things go through my mind...my cousin keep said that i must go back to KL...dunno why but lately i became to think of what he said...back to KL means i have to overcome many things...n recently, i hate to fly...hehehehehe...weird isn't?

well...if i thing in the positive way..many things i can do there but....ah...forget that...so..go or not go? my head spinning like wheel already...hahahahahaha.....

waaa!!!! dunno what i have to choose...hurm...

i will think of it i said to him...but to tell the truth...it never cross my mind to go back there...
its ok...for his sake i wil think of it...well..see you soon my blog...i'll see you with my ANSWER...

healthy...

hurm...still continue with this sickness...arghhh!!!! feel so tense n want to be gone...sakit sgt...

tekak sakit, pale pening jer, dada rasa sesak n kaki lenguh2...aduhh...mcm2 penyakit yg serang dlm satu masa..pening pale di watnye...

hurm..xpe la..ni maybe dugaan...

hurm..rasa sedih sgt coz xdpt panggilan temuduga kat mpsj...jelez ngan kwn sorg tu..tpi xpe lah..maybe bkn rezeki kat sana..think positive!!!(xsuka sakit sbb selalu fikir yg negative jer)

ape2 pun...life must go on!!! yeah!!!

hidup ayashi hidup arashi!!!!

GANBATTE!!!!!

the cause

hurm...sakit yg berpanjangan menjadikan aku sedikit sengsara...heheheheh...bkn sengsara ape...tpi aku xleh berckp sbb aku xde suara..hehehehehe...pedih pon ade tekak ni...

pada masa ini...dikala line tgh laju ni aku melakukan bnyk bende termasuklah nak carikan keje kat umi aku...kebelakangan ni die asyik sakit je...so die decided nak stop drive bas skola n nak masuk nurse balik...my father said ok...kitorg pun suka jgk...so bas ni akan dijual la....mcm itu la kiranya...

berbalik nak carikan mak aku keje...aku lak nak wat bisnes je...berbekalkan bakat yg ade...(ade jgk lah dari xde) aku decide nak tlg abah aku...hurm...mudah2an menjadi lah hendaknye ye...

so sape2 yg nak kahwen tu akan jumpe lah muka aku...(cume aku je yg xkahwen2 g...hehhehehe)....

ah...berbalik pada isu post yg lepas..pasal org nak dtg merisik tu...die hntr lah jgk rombongan die tu..aku dgn berbudi bahasanye ckp kat mak die "makcik...klu sy trime cincin ni maknenye sy terpaksa sbb xnak malukan makcik n pakcik" mak die tanpa bnyk soal trus ckp kat aku "maaf nak, anak makcik tu mang degil..siap die bile makcik balik nti"...seram jgk makcik ni aku tgk...hehehehe..ape2 pon, kwn aku ckp teruk die kna bantai kat mak die...pedulikan lah die...yg penting xde org yg nk kacau hidup aku g....

sesuia dgn status sendiri ni...ape2 yg aku wat pon sendiri termasuk lah tanggung sakit ni...pedih wei tekak ni...hukhukhukhuk!!! eh..dah batuk dah...xpe lah..smpi cni je lah kot....

see u all again...

mata ne....

Tired

lately too many things happen at the same time...in my life in my family n in anything that i involved with....

ntah la...ade yg baik n ade yg buruk...tpi bkn tu yg aku nak citer...about a week ago that i want to share here....

a week ago, ade la sorg mamat ni...die ckp kat kwn aku yg die nak hntr rombongan merisik kat umah aku...aku pon ape g..angin la satu bdn...aku dah ckp kat mamat tu yg aku xnak ade relationship kat sape2 pon...

mlm ni die text aku...die desak gak nak hntr..aku ckp je kat mamat tu...hntr la...tpi jwpn aku x...biar padan ngan muka die...aku dah la ngah bzy..die nak cri pasal jgk kat aku...aku geram sgt..dah la nak kawan ngan aku tpi mcm paksa je...aku pelik la..ade gak mamat mcm ni kat dunia ni...

yg kwn aku pon 'pandai' sgt bagi no aku kat mamat tu..thanks la kwn..aku rasa mcm nak cekik2 je batang leher ko...geram!! dah la kasi x g tau kat aku...hurm....

eh? apesal aku termarah lak kat blog ni?? ishk3...hehehehehe...gurau je la...esk jdi satu keje aku g nak tolak risikan org...adehh...pening r pale...nape la mamat kayu ni xfaham...sengal tol la....

ape2 pon aku nak tido dulu...mudah2an esk aku dpt fikir dgn tenang...(bkn utk terima risikan mamat tu..itu aku tetap xsuka)...

gudnite...oyasuminasai....

Oretachi No Song.....

hehehehehe....tajuk jepun tu..means lagu kita...this song were sang by Arashi...the jpop group idol that i like...

two days ago i'm so happy coz i got the whole album n another thing that makes me happy is the 5x10 concert dvd i already got after 4 months waiting..(dah tempah dari jepun confirm la lmbt sampai..hehehehe) after all i got it..fuh!!!

i like this group because all of the song were so motivating n good to listen at...it can accompany my soul n calm me down...but it also can raised my mood...huhuhuhu

love this group...especially their leader...Ohno Satoshi a.k.a Riida...hehehehehe....


from left...Aiba Masaki, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ohno Satoshi, Sakurai Sho n Matsumoto Jun...
this is the Arashi member...

Salam Untuk Kekasih

Di sebalik kalbu
Yang semakin layu
Terbenam rasa rindu
Terkunci suara hati
Tiada siapa tahu

Dimanakah kasih
Tak seperti dulu
Kata kau sayangkan ku
Benarkah itu

Walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara
Bukan salahmu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta
Akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri

Kini ku bersara
Dengan langkah baru
Menyisi luka ini
Kekasih... sekeras aku
Terhiris kerna kamu

Ku tinggalkan cinta
Kisah yang berlalu
Kisah kenangan kita
Hanya kau tahu

Walau kehadiranmu bagaikan menghiasi
Bukan caraku sayang harap engkau mengerti
Pemergianku ini tak ku relai
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri

Setelah Sendiri

Setelah Sendiri...begitu lah secara ringkas tentang apa yg aku ingin coretkan di sini pada malam ini....

hurm...setelah sendiri...single itu indah tpi..sunyi..tiada gelak tawa insan tersayang..tiada siapa lagi yg sudi mengambil berat bersengkang mata semata-mata untuk mengetahui keadaan diri ini sihat atau x..begitulah putaran roda kehidupan....aku ingin single...itulah keputusan hatiku...

kenapa aku ingin menjadi sendiri? kerana aku melihat si dia lebih bahagia di luar sana dgn insan lain selain aku...bagi ku..aku hnya menyekat kebebasan dia, kehidupan yg seharusnya dia miliki..."syg, andai dgn melepaskanmu kau dpt memiliki kehidupan bahagiamu...aku rela..." pergh!!! ayat tangkap masyuk...masuk ker???

hehehehehe...ape2 je lah aku ni...ye la..skrg ni kna la pandai hiburkan hati sendiri...sume kna sendiri...dah keputusan itu yg ku pilih...biar lah dia bahagia..bila kami bersama..hnya air mata yg menghiasi harinya...

syg...maafkan diri ini sekiranya bnyk mengundang duka dalam kehidupanmu..aku harap kau akn lebih berbahagia selepas ini tanpa diri ini yg selalu menyeksa kehidupanmu...aku harap kau akn selalu tersenyum gembira selepas ini....carilah org yg lebih memahamimu selain diri ini....hnya doa yg mampu ku utuskan untuk mengiringi kebahagiaan dirimu....

p/s..sesungguhnya syg terhadap dirimu tidak pernah padam walaupun hubungan ini sudah terputus....

Shattered Glass

Hoh, hoh, hoh, ho-oh-oh-ho
Hoh, hoh, hoh, ho-oh-oh

Did I wake you? Were you sleeping? Were you still in the bed?
Or is a nightmare keeping you up instead?
Oh baby, are you feeling guilty for what you did?
If you think you're hurtin', you ain't seen nothing yet

Was it really worth it?
Was she everything that you were looking for?
Feel like a man
I hope you know that you can't come back
'Cause all we had is broken like shattered glass

You're gonna see me in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gon' want me back
When your world falls apart like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass, glass

Are you having trouble focusing throughout the day?
Do you find yourself still calling my name?
Do you wish you could rewind time and take it back?
I bet you realized that she ain't half the woman I am

Was it really worth it?
Was she everything that you were looking for?
Feel like a man
I hope you know that you can't come back
'Cause all we had is broken like shattered glass

You're gonna see me in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gon' want me back
When your world falls apart like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass, glass

L-l-like glass
Glass
Glass

Hoh, hoh, hoh, ho-oh-oh-ho
Hoh, hoh, hoh, ho-oh-oh

let go....

today...i let go everything...from my love to my heart...
from my past to my future...i let go....

i will gain new one...i sure but i juz not sure what it will be....
i hope it is good...