at last...

akhirnye...abis dah kesengsaraan selama 9 bulan...klu kna kat pompuan..dah bersalin agaknye...
ari ni...23/09/2010..adik aku selamat menghabiskan kertas UPSR terakhirnye...amin...

nama die pun amin gak...hehhehehe...ape pun..aku dah warning die awal2...pas ni die xleh ganggu aku dah...penat aku jadik bodyguard die...bkn ape..adik aku yg sorg ni hyper sket...so kna control bnyk...klu x...hurm...

ape2 pun skrg kna bnyk doa supaya die dpt 5A's straight....jdi lepas gak title dak nakal die tu....usaha dah, doa dah...skrg ni tawakal je...insyaallah..aku yakin die leh dpt...biar lah die jdi org yg pertama n last yg dpt excellent result in my family....

aku doa dia dpt kejayaan yg setanding dgn usaha die selama ini...segala penat lelah, kesengsaraan, paksaan smpi nangis tu...aku harap sgt dpt berbalas...biarlah giliran die plak merasa ape itu kejayaan selepas berusaha...

hurm...now back to me...not much...cume skrg kna berdoa bnyk2 agar sape2 yg ade sakit hati kat aku, marah or broken heart kat aku dpt maafkan aku...bkn ape...maybe tu penghalang rezeki...ye la..nak cari rezeki ni perlu berkat org lain jgk...mudah2an terbuka lah pintu hati dorg sume tu supaya dpt maafkan diri ni...

after raya...

hurm...after raya ni i'm busy with my younger brother...facing UPSR...n as the last one...many high expectation from other family member...i know my brother ability n i know he can do it...he juz need a lil' confident...but sometimes he can be over it....

always told him that anything leaves to God...i dont care bout the result but as a sister i also want the best...klu die dpt wat yg terbaik...cerahlah peluang die nak masuk kat skola tahfiz terbaik kat Subang Jaya tu...n aku pun disuruh le oleh umi aku untuk keje kat area situ...nak teman adik aku la kirenye...adehh...

ni la masalahnye skrg ni...permohonan keje dah diuruskan...kwn abah aku plak tu yg urus..aku dah risau dah ni...wat nye adik aku xnak g situ...mau aku sorg2 kat situ..adehh. pening seh...penat kasi alasan xnak g...tpi ntah la...umi iye2 sgt suh aku g...xpe la...mudah2an berkat...dpt jgk keje yg kwn abah cadangkan tu....

ni dah nak kna fikir dah ni...nak kna rancang dah..nak tinggal kat ner, nak duk dgn sape..mcm2 la plak bile fikir..hurm...susah tol la..ape2 pun tgk la dulu...nak pegi ke x...xpegi kang merajuk lak umi abah tu...pegi lak kang cari nahas la plak...susah tol la...penat aku kasi alasan dah alas nak fly...xjalan jgk...adehhh....

ape2 pun mudah2an adik aku selamat menjalani peperiksaan UPSR tu dgn jayanye....sesape yg baca blog merepek aku ni...murah2kan la doa anda untuk adik saya ye...makaseh...

adios...sayonara!!!

07/09/2010

tarikh yg sgt menyayat hati bagi penduduk2 kwsn pasir putih...kwnsn kg yg berdekatan dgn tempat aku tinggal...

tarikh ini sgt keramat bagi mereka kerana rumah mereka hangus dijilat api semalam...sgt menyedihkan tgk tempat kejadian tersebut kerana keadaannya sama seperti padang jarak padang tekukur....saya hanya mampu beristighfar melihat keadaan yg berlaku...sudah lah kg bru lepas reda dari banjir..ni terbakar lak...bagaikan sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga...sedih aku memikirkan nasib penduduk disitu...harap2 mereka bnyk bersabar diatas semua perkara yg menimpa mereka...

enough with that...xnak sedih2 g...semalam jgk merupakan tarikh yg sgt penting bagi diri ini apabila aku berjaya menghabiskan 30 juz Al-Quran...syukur alhamdulillah!!! sgt2 seronok rupanya bila dah khatam...cet!! mcm xpenah khatam..tpi yg wat aku seronok tu sbb dlm tgh2 aku xdak suara ni leh jgk aku khatam...

klu org call aku tanpa tgk muka ni mesti dorg ckp aku ni lelaki...walhal..lain ceritanye...hehehehe. aku pon degil gak...umi penat ckp dah2 la teguk air batu tu...aku teguk gak...kan dah sakit....padan ngan muka aku yg xcomel ni...hehhehehehe...

aku sebenarnye pening dgn kerenah ramai org sekeliling aku ni...terutamanya lelaki. ntah la...janji mcm2, mulut manis mcm tebu...tebu pun xmanis sgt kot...ntah la..susah nak percya...nasib la aku ni bkn jenias org yg mudah cair...i dont buy that ok....lantak korg le...malas aku nak layan....

ok la...aku nak g solat dulu..pape hal aku akn roger kat blog ni even aku je sorg yg post kat blog ni n aku jgk yg tgk blog aku sendiri...xpe la...don't mind that...chow dulu..adios!!!

p/s...pas solat nak layan lagu Arashi lak....daisuki!!!!

Recently...

hurm...where should i start? ketika entri ini ditulis ia pada waktu selepas sahur dikala ingatan masih elok walaupun sedikit mamai disebabkan rasa mengantuk....

kebelakangan ini mood dilanda suatu perasaan ingin memberontak dan menari-nari walaupun keinginan tersebut amat payah untuk ditunaikan...tetapi rasa bersyukur tetap ada disebabkan ini adalah fitrah makhluk di bumi ini..

through this weekend...there are 3 people want to make up in line...owh God!! i have to be patient...if i burst out then my promise to stay cool n calm will be broke...nope..i musn't break it in any case...

music mood these past two weeks is funky n RnB...dunno why but lately all the mood of the song are changes..what ever it is..its a good sign...means i still have a rythmn in me...i'm glad i have it..back to where i am now...i'm so glad coz i made it to this day...become an actress in so many shoot n sequence in my life makes me realize how though life is...i'm happy coz i made through it...

my health this weekend is not very good...from last week i keep got sick n my energy become low like a battery..owh God...i need my energy back..how can i prove to all people that i'm fine living my life alone? i need my energy n i need to stay healthy...

be hoping that my healthy will be ok i try to create a new memory of me...wish me luck yeah....i'm so lucky coz i have a chance to live in this precious life...

28/08

all things happen start with this date...28/08/2007....masa tu aku ngah muda seh...hehehehehe...aku jumpe die ni kat uni tmpt aku study...at first kitorg ni knal asyik gaduh jer...tpi..sehari aku xtgk muka die aku dah risau dah...sbb aku xde tmpt nak gaduh...sunyi je klu sehari aku xgaduh ngan die...hehehehehe...

mula tu kitorang kwn je..lama2 tu aku dah rasa lain...it start with a kiss n we seal it until 3 years...tpi skrg kitorg dah break dah...aku tulis entry ni pon coz ari ni adalah anniversary kitorg tu pun if we still together...but now dah xkan..so it will become a memorable date to remember...aku sgt syg kat die ni..xpenah2 aku syg org len mcm aku wat kat die...aku jaga sume keperluan dan kehendak die smpi lah assignment pon aku kna paksa die siapkan....heheheheh...klu x...xrasa la kitorg pegang dip sesame....

tpi tu dulu...now aku dah xde pape ngan die....kwn pon aku xtau la...aku tau die marah n benci sgt kat aku sbb aku yg mintak nak break ni...aku bkn ape..aku tau die xtahan dgn long distance relationship ni...utk memudahkan die..aku mintak break...its not easy for me to said that 'kite break la'....masa aku ckp mcm tu pon aku nangis....aku sebak n sedih sgt....

aku mang xnak die sedih...aku nak die happy always...bile die happy, aku pon happy...n bile die xingat kat aku die akn lebih happy...mcm2 yg kitorg lalui bersama sepanjang tempoh 3 tahun kitorg couple ni...biasa r...gaduh tu mcm dah xde ape je...sbb pas tu aku yg akan mintak maaf kat die...hurm...aku dah terlalu bnyk mengalah n now..i dont want...

biar la die belajar utk lupekan aku...g pun..aku ni bkn lah yg terbaik utk die..dah lah duk jauh, susah nak dtg tgk die...aku sentiasa harapkan yg die akn tersenyum...aku yakin die pasti leh bahagia dgn pilihan die skrg ni...mang lah aku agak terguris bile die ckp yg die dah ade pengganti aku mcm aku rasa aku bru mati, tanah masih merah g die dah cri org ganti tmpt aku dlm hidup die...adehh...pedih seh..tpi nak wat mcm mane..tu hidup die n keputusan die....

awk...sy mintak maaf sgt sepanjang 3 tahun ni klu sy selalu sakitkan hati awk..sy tau sy jahat...selalu wat awk marah n selalu cari gaduh kat awk...sy selalu wat awk nangis...maafkan sy..halalkan segala ape yg terkurg dan terlebih yg awk kasi kat sy..maafkan sy sbb terpaksa wat awk mcm ni...sy syg awk sgt2..cuma satu je harapan sy kat awk...andai ditakdirkan sy pergi menyahut seruan Ilahi..dtglah berziarah ke kubur sy...

p/s....sy syg awk smpi bila2...

NOT MUCH

hurm...actually i dont know what to say here...well...the result for my last post is...don't go...means i xpegi KL. maybe not this time...i will have another chance...

lately i feel empty, lonely, lost n everything...arghhh!!!!!!!! i got to admit i lost my best friend...my love n my everything...its my own fault actually...dunno...

well...even though i feel lost...but i'm happy coz that person finally have the happiness...u will be love n now its dream comes true...

may God always bless u n u will find ur true love n ur true happiness...Amin...

whatever it is u always be the one i love so much n u always in me...

back to KL....

hurm...lately, a lot of things go through my mind...my cousin keep said that i must go back to KL...dunno why but lately i became to think of what he said...back to KL means i have to overcome many things...n recently, i hate to fly...hehehehehe...weird isn't?

well...if i thing in the positive way..many things i can do there but....ah...forget that...so..go or not go? my head spinning like wheel already...hahahahahaha.....

waaa!!!! dunno what i have to choose...hurm...

i will think of it i said to him...but to tell the truth...it never cross my mind to go back there...
its ok...for his sake i wil think of it...well..see you soon my blog...i'll see you with my ANSWER...