AM I CRUEL???

hurm...what should i do?? to prevent my heart to be broken again after i hardly cured it..i have to do that...i make a really big mistake juz now...hurm...gomenne fauzi...i speak harshly to him juz now...poor my little cousin...if u know how hard i keep this broken heart then u'll never done such mistake...i know u miss that person...u want to see that person..but i cant fulfill ur wish..n why on earth u make such wish?? i totally dont understand....

its ok u hate me now....one day u'll understand that me n that person are not meant to be together...i'm juz one of that person failed experiment...so let it be like that...when u grown up u'll understand many things...i'll always love u dear fauzi..."k.ila xda niat pun nak marah abg iji mcm tdi...tpi kan k.ila dah ckp jgn sentuh hp k.ila. napa degil?? dah tu abg iji g dail no tu napa??"....=(((

hurm...i'm really sad coz i have to do such thing to my lovely little cousin...hontou ni gomennasai....

p/s...to my heart, be strong. i'm a strong lady. i can endure this. its juz a little mistake n i can fix it...be strong. hold onto myself. i know i can do it....GANBATTE!!!

*mood* -SS501_LOVE LIKE THIS-

11/11/2010

nice date today...n there will be another memorable thing will happen today in my family...

today is my brother's day...his UPSR result will be out today at 10.30 a.m...owh...cant wait for the result...i'm so nervous..i've been taking care of him for the whole years now...n like what i always praying..after he got his result, i will get job..thanks to God..my praying have come true....

but i'm so nervous...like i'm the one who will get the result...i hope everything will be ok....i'll update the result soon...

ja ne...mata ashta....

-update-...juz got the result at 11 am....he got 1A, 2B n 2C... gosh!!!! i'm so dissappointed...what is he doing this whole year?? i teach him..i did everything...my God!!! i cry enough already...dunno what else to say...

BROKEN HEARTED BY BEYONCE

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

CRY

"Cry"

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...